Why I Write
- 10 Posts
- Age 18
I write because sometimes it’s just too complicated to tell everything to anyone. I write because I think people won’t understand. I write because I don’t think I can fully trust anyone. I write because I think people won’t be so nice or approving. I write because I think people would try too hard to be nice and approving.
I write because at the time, I don’t have whatever it takes to run away–both mentally and physically.
I write because the pages are simply there. They are not talking back, they are not giving any advice, they are not offering words of comfort, they are not judging. They are simply being there in their blankness, waiting for my pen to vomit the chaos of my thoughts and feelings. They never flinch no matter how dark, or mean those thoughts and feelings turn out to be. Sometimes, my handwriting is tiny and neat and round, other times thin and messy and sharp, other times huge and bold and wet with tears. But the pages are still there–even when they get damp, torn, crumpled, thinned, or worn out; they stay.
I write because at the time, it is the only thing I can do. I write because it is the cheapest and safest way to express myself: my sadness, my anger, my hatred, as well as my secret wishes, my dreams…I write because when things get hard, writing gives me an outlet to empty my mind (and my heart) for a while. I write because only by doing so, I can transfer the revolving and revolting thoughts in my mind into the pages of my journal, name it, recognize it, pinpoint it, then lock it in a drawer and give it a safe ‘distance’.
I write because I can reread those words a few hours later, nine days later, nine weeks later, nine months later, or nine years later, and feel differently each time; noticing how much I have grown and how much I have learned.
I write because that’s the one thing I know to see the many sides of me and finally understand who I really am–and who I really want to be (even when nobody is looking).
Different people in all walks of life choose different outlets to cope with different kind of things :)