The society which you live in is the same society you lack courage in.
The people who are by your side always hide, just not be seen by those who backbite behind you.
Is it shy, pride? I don't know.
And the moment they realize you're progressing, succeeding, they'll start to develop fashion in your dressing.
Not knowing all that you've went through has always been so stressing.
The society in your community.
When you start to cry, no one will stop by not even to try to wipe your tears until it's dried.
And then you'll be asked "Were you crying?"
Let your answer be "No I wasn't, I was just trying to control how to confront my fears by letting some tears out".
In your society just be STRONG.